This is a place where I do not have to worry about people bitching that I am selfish and that "everyone thing is about you!" because guess what? It IS about me

Well, you already know that I have an evil side and a good side. I am the epitome of what a Gemini stands for. I am starting to learn more about astrology and horoscope signs in general and it is amazing how much a Gemini I am. Example: "The most beautiful part of Gemini girls are their beautiful eyes. Sometimes fascinating combination of green shade are seen in their eyes." I do indeed have beautiful green eyes. "The Gemini woman's ideal home is a place where her family can feel free and relaxed, especially in expressing their individualities. As a mother, she is great fun but not always tolerant. In essence, her patience tends to run out rather quickly." Again, very true. "Since they lack the quality of conscientiousness, they are apt to fight a losing battle in any attempts they make to be moral (in the widest sense of the word). Their good qualities are attractive and come easily to them. They are affectionate, courteous, kind, generous, and thoughtful towards the poor and suffering - provided none of the activities resulting from expressing these traits interferes too greatly with their own lives and comforts. They quickly learn to use their outward attractiveness to gain their own ends, and when striving for these they will use any weapon in their armory - unscrupulous lying, and cunning evasiveness; escaping blame by contriving to put it on other people, wrapped up in all the charm they can turn on. In their better moments they may strive to be honest and straightforward, but self-interest is almost always the victor. If things go against them, they sulk like children.
Also like children, they demand attention, admiration, and the spending on them of time, energy and money, throwing tantrums if they don't get what they want. They reflect every change in their surroundings, like chameleons, and can become pessimistic, sullen, peevish and materialistically self-centered if circumstances force them to struggle in any way. If the conditions of life become really adverse, their strength of will may desert them entirely. They can become uncertain of themselves, either withdrawn, or nervously excitable worriers, sullenly discontented, hard and irritable, with "Self" looming ever larger in their struggles. On the other hand their versatility can make them very adaptable, adjusting themselves to control the world around them by means of their inherent ingenuity and cleverness." Just a little bit more about my nature that rings very true. Even the negative characteristics.

So now that you know a little more about my inner self I will carry on. I am a mother of 4 young boys. They are my life and my heart. Mikey is 5, soon to be 6 in December. He is sensitive and has an amazing memory. He is a music lover as well. He just started kindergarten in September and loves it.



Nathan is my 4 year old. He is my little "devil child". Has the bad attitude and is very independent. We love him and his spunk, though his spunk tends to get him in trouble most days ;-)



Dylan is my 2 1/2 year old. He is such a friendly boy and loves attention. He is also the comical one out of the four. He enjoys music and loves to dance and sing.



And then there is the baby. Benjamin is almost 9 months old and he is such a sweet little boy. He has his moments where he loves being cuddled but he also has an independent side to him where he just wants to go and do his own thing.



I am a wife to a pretty amazing guy, Mike. We met back in high school and though we didn't hit it off at first, we ended up hanging out with the same crowd and became best friends. We have been together for 12 years and married for 4 years. It sounds cheesy but he is my soul mate. I don't think we ever use our real names. To me he is "Babe" and to him I am "Babe".





I also have a pretty kick ass brother. He is currently Staff Sergeant in the Unites States Army and he is 25 years old. We didn't always get along when we were younger but I always had his back and always will. Right now he is stationed in Korea with his wife. We don't talk as often as I would like but they are two of my best friends and I am thankful they are in my life.



I am a lyricist. I can write a good set of lyrics like no one's business, but I can not write the music. Another day I will post some of my lyrics for you to read and I always appreciate feedback. Constructive criticism is welcome as I am always looking for ways to improve my lyrical ability. I also am a graphic designer. I love making graphics on the computer and not too long ago I started doing photo editing. Some of my work can be found here at Kelli's Creations

I love tattoos so I finally was able to get my very first one back in September. It is a celtic motherhood knot and each dot represents my children in their birthstone color. Mike and I incorporated our birthstone colors into it as well. I plan on getting many more tattoos, I love them.



My favorite colors are purple, black and pink. My favorite season is Fall.

I am utterly obsessed with the band Breaking Benjamin


I am a fan of the New York Yankees-
I have a weird sense of humor and find things like this



VERY funny.

I am a lover of books and have an extreme fondness for True Crime novels. The more disturbing the better. I also swore off the Twilight series for a long time and then one day I decided to read the books. Became a Twihard around the middle of the first book in the series.

I love to sing. I am not great but I believe I can carry a tune. I love to dance as well and I have pretty good rhythm for a white girl. I am just a lover of music in general. If music ceased to exist I would be one sad Kelli.

Huge animal lover here. I think animals deserve more rights and are treated unfairly.

There is so much more that makes up who I am but this is a little preview of what you can expect to read about me. My husband,my kids, graphics, music, Breaking Benjamin, anything that peeks my interest. If you find me interesting, thats cool. If you don't , hey that is cool too. You should still follow me and tell me what you think about my ramblings.

I am on a mission. A weight loss mission. Lets wander back into the past for a second...

Picture it-An 18 year old Kelli weighing 118 pounds. Curves in all the right places and a nice size C cup. I graduate from high school and become a little less active and manage to gain 32 pounds within 6 years. 2003 I become pregnant with my first child. Throughout this pregnancy I gain 70 pounds. Yes you read that correctly. I was a lazy first time pregnant woman! Figured I was "eating for two" so what the hell...

I have my son Mikey December 4th 2003 and by January 8th of 2005 I have lost 60 of those pounds. Woohoo! Back down to 160. Well, my joy is short lived as far as weight loss is concerned because that is also the day that I find out Mike and I are expecting our second child. With Nathan I gained 45 pounds so I skyrocket back up to 205 pounds. After Nathan I got down to about 190 and stayed there till I got pregnant in 2006 with our third son Dylan. With him I gained about 35 pounds so I was still well above 200 when I gave birth. Fell back down to 190 with Dylan before we moved into our house and within about two months I lost 15 more pounds. Again, I find myself pregnant with our fourth son Benjamin. I gained about 30 pounds with him and lost 25 of it within two weeks after giving birth to him. However, this was in thanks to the horrible flu I had, the post partum depression and the wonderful infection in my c section incision. After I was all better I gained some weight back. Now I am at 188 and I have stayed there for the last two months. Nothing lost yet nothing gained.

My dream goal is to get down to a sexy 125 pounds. Actually according to those crazy charts, I am supposed to be at 123. I am 5 foot 3 inches incase you are wondering. Needless to say, my realistic goal is 140. The dilema here is that I have no willpower. I joke that I used it all to help me quit smoking years ago. But sadly, I am serious. So hopefully knowing that someone out there is going to be reading this and wanting updates about my weight loss (or if you would rather see me fail-my weight gain) it will give me the motivation to work harder at this. Wish me luck!

This is me at 175 lbs

I have never been one to bite my tongue. At least not for a long period of time. Mom always taught me from a young age to never take any shit from anyone. I don't and I won't. Because of this I have been called a bitch, a drama queen, outspoken, heartless and a few other names that I shouldn't say but I am sure you get the picture. So, in other words, if I keep my mouth shut and play nice girl things will be fine and dandy. Well, that is just not me. If something is bothering me you can rest assured that the whole world is going to know about it. If you piss me off, 99% of the time you will not need to question why I am angry because I will let you know what is on my mind and I probably won't be nice about it.

I am a firm believer in "you reap what you sow". I also believe that trust and respect is something that is earned not automatically given. I am not an Indian but I also firmly believe in Karma. What goes around will come around back to you.

Anyhow, with all that said, I am honestly not a huge fan of confrontation. Ironic isn't it? When I need to confront someone or they confront me about something, I get all tense and nervous. Yet no matter what, I will stand my ground. I find that within my internet life I am always defending myself. It is for the simple fact that I am not ok with people thinking untrue things about me or spreading rumors about me. Even if it is just the internet, there are still real people behind these computer screens. In my real life, anyone will tell you that I say what I think and what I feel. On the rare occasion that I bite my tongue, it won't happen for long. If I do not get out my emotions, they eat me alive and I can not stand it. Call me selfish but I would rather piss someone off rather than deal with hiding my feelings.

Always say what you feel, don't hold anything back. Be true to yourself.

Why do I associate myself with this name? Because I can. Ages ago I was trying to think of a cool ID for the internets and I thought, hmmm. I can be a mean bitch when I want to be but I can also be sweet as apple pie. So Voila! HatefulAngel was born. When thinking of me people often see a devil woman with horns holding up a halo. That is just how I roll. I blame this whole idea of myself on being a gemini. It is like two people inside of me at all times. Kind of like Beyonce and her alter-ego Sasha Fierce. No, I wouldn't call it multiple personality disorder. At least not yet ;-)

Life is simply to boring to be either completely innocent or comletely evil. I choose both. I do not lack empathy but I will not hesitate to tell you exactly how I feel about someone/something. It takes a strong person to be a friend of mine. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy and I will probably be ok with either option.

So I am here.. blogging. About what I do not know yet. I am sure whatever it is will be a variation of different things. You may see some drama, you may see me bitching and you may even be bored to tears at times. I am a passionate , outspoken chick and you will either love me or hate me, I can promise you that much.

My name is Kelli~AKA HatefulAngel. Why HatefulAngel? That will be another blog altogher :-)